Don't worry. There's a happy ending.

[dreamer_easy]

Feeling suicidal gives you, paradoxically, a kind of power. You're in a kind of end-of-the-world, anything-goes state: all bets are off, no rules apply.

For many people this would probably mean an orgy of unwise sex, drinking, drugs, and generally crazy self-destructive adventure. For me it's more like "Hey! Let's blow off the gym, go to the mall instead, and buy a Spirograph! Yeah!"

There's more, though. A mate reckons suicide is, in part, an expression of anger. It's rage flowing in the wrong direction. We turn our urge to damage and destroy in on ourselves.

O my little cyberbullies, you should never pick on someone when they're suicidal. Not because they might do away with themselves, leaving you scarred for life with guilt. Because they're in the mood to wreck something, and it might as well be you.

I'm saved again and again as my pain turns itself into rage. Thanks for helping, you sad little turds.

Comments

[murasaki-1966.livejournal.com]

I need one. I had one when I was a kid, and some of the best fun I ever had on my own was with it. What size is it? I have a little one my darling husband found for me. I'd like a bigger one...

And, weel, I hope you feel better soon. I would like you nad John to come over to our place and have vegetarian Chinese steamboat with us when you both feel up to it.

[kateorman.livejournal.com]

vegetarian Chinese steamboat

Explain this interesting idea!