Brain

[dreamer_easy]

If these intermittent attacks of the crazies are the result of my meds, I shall be very put out. I thought they might be little manic swings, but there's nothing euphoric or creative about them - just an inability to focus on anything more complex than the rat pleasure lever of the Internet. Can't read, can't make dinner, etc. Agitation? Overstimulation? No twitching or pacing, but quite a bit of hanging onto my head as if trying to hold my brain still. tl;dr This sucks, whatever it is, and we shall conquer it.

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[travlr1.livejournal.com]

solar flares?

[pbristow.livejournal.com]

I had a pair of those, when I was younger...

[dreamer-easy.livejournal.com]

he he he

Today my shrink gave me a polite but firm reminder not to try and diagnose myself (especially not with the help of the Internet :).

[lonely-otter.livejournal.com]

That's what mania is. The euphoric-creative feeling is at an earlier stage on the continuum. A therapist once told me that the upswing to mania was the ideal human condition. Unfortunately, the upswing keeps going. I've always thought of it as like a car which hits a certain smooth perfect speed and then, as it accelerates, begins to shake and shudder.

[dreamer-easy.livejournal.com]

I miss feeling "up" in that way. I worry that my meds have levelled off my feelings, both the worst and the best, leaving me sort of in the middle, numb.