"I turn up dead all the time."

For me, God is a dark-skinned whore. I mention this not for cred, but because I'm pondering. What does that mean? Does it mean anything? What can I do with it?

ETA: Sometimes I am the only one who knows what I'm talking about. :-) I'm referring to Inanna / Ishtar, the Mesopotamian goddess of love and war, whom I worship.