"It's purely sexual." "No shit?"
Jan. 14th, 2008 10:02 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Prior to a hasty flocking1, a naughty nameless person was complaining that my Doctor Who novels are merely an excuse for indulging my fetishes. I protest! I prefer the term "perversions"!
It's hardly the first time someone's pointed out the suspicious link between my perpetual crush on the Doctor and the rougher than usual handling he received in my books for Virgin and the Beeb. I've puzzled about this for years - there are perfectly sensible writerly reasons to kick hell out of your characters, but those scenes of hurt and comfort drove my narratives (to the point where even I started taking the piss). In actual TV episodes, I find them more riveting than any other part of the story.
The thing is, it can't actually be a fetish; bluntly, it doesn't sexually arouse me. I have a few strange little turn-ons, just like anyone (not that you'll be hearing about those in this blog, dear reader), and I can tell the difference between them and, say, 42 or Set Piece. I don't think it's sadism, either - I always end up identifying with the victim, not the other guy. And my heart goes pit-a-pat for, say, the Fourth Doctor getting zapped in The Android Invasion, even though I'm incapable of fancying Tom Baker. In the immortal words of Sonny Crockett: "What the hell is going on here?!"
My current theory is that it's some sort of sublimated parasexual thingumy to do with heroic suffering (something I am crap at myself). Like Christian girls falling in non-sexual love with Jesus. Does this tally with anyone else's experience? Is hurt/comfort an actual turn-on for you, or just a strange fascination?
1 I'm wrong! It's just cut now, which I guess is why it fell off Google Blogs search.
It's hardly the first time someone's pointed out the suspicious link between my perpetual crush on the Doctor and the rougher than usual handling he received in my books for Virgin and the Beeb. I've puzzled about this for years - there are perfectly sensible writerly reasons to kick hell out of your characters, but those scenes of hurt and comfort drove my narratives (to the point where even I started taking the piss). In actual TV episodes, I find them more riveting than any other part of the story.
The thing is, it can't actually be a fetish; bluntly, it doesn't sexually arouse me. I have a few strange little turn-ons, just like anyone (not that you'll be hearing about those in this blog, dear reader), and I can tell the difference between them and, say, 42 or Set Piece. I don't think it's sadism, either - I always end up identifying with the victim, not the other guy. And my heart goes pit-a-pat for, say, the Fourth Doctor getting zapped in The Android Invasion, even though I'm incapable of fancying Tom Baker. In the immortal words of Sonny Crockett: "What the hell is going on here?!"
My current theory is that it's some sort of sublimated parasexual thingumy to do with heroic suffering (something I am crap at myself). Like Christian girls falling in non-sexual love with Jesus. Does this tally with anyone else's experience? Is hurt/comfort an actual turn-on for you, or just a strange fascination?
1 I'm wrong! It's just cut now, which I guess is why it fell off Google Blogs search.
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Date: 2008-01-14 04:09 pm (UTC)Is liking h/c sexually based? Jeez, I dunno -- for me, not particularly (I seem to respond on a "root for the underdog" basis more than anything), though there's nothing stopping me from liking a good solid h/c sex story, either. But sexuality is such a wide open playing field, I couldn't even begin to judge how it works for others. I have been known to describe the really extreme versions as "victimhood pr0n," which is how they read to me (whether or not there's actual pr0n involved).
It *does* seem to be more of a "girly" thing, based strictly on my own informal observations, but that may be partly because women are more open about liking and using the trope.
As a random DW comment, is it just me or is RTD starting to overplay the "hurt" card with the current Doctor? I was watching VotD, and thinking, "Dude, you're gonna have to get to the comfort pretty soon, or you're gonna start hacking off your viewership . . .!" 'Course, he's a pro and I'm not, so I hope he knows what he's doin'!