Hypomania? Day 3

I keep looking for metaphors to describe this. Look, it's a bit like you're in a river in a moderately strong current, right? You have a branch or something to hold onto, and you can hold on. But imagine if the current was stronger. Or if you decided to let go.

Now I've gone and conceptualised it as illness, I can't relax and enjoy it. Then again, I can't relax, anyway.

ETA: I've had marked aphasia in the last week or so. Related? Or merely the effect of extreme age?