General headdeskery

[dreamer_easy]

ISTG I spend the best part of every day searching for stuff in this dump. I sat down today to write the first scene of The Per-Bastet Heresy, set my timer, limbered up my fingers, and then spent two hours trying to find the &*%)*^ notebook containing the crucial info. I can't find the shoulder exercises my physio wrote down for me, either. I think I'm organised; in fact, I'm living in a random cloud of paper, junk, and cat hairs. My only hope is to blow it all up with dynamite and start again.

ETA: And another thing. My blood sugars are appalling and nothing I do improves them. (At least not in the long term. I'm still having hypos after the gym if I'm not careful.) I'm already taking the maximum dosage of my meds. I'm sick to death of the thirst, the munchies, the weeing, and more than anything, the &*)%^*)(^ blurred vision. I don't see my endocrinologist again until December.

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[outsdr.livejournal.com]

"I don't see my endocrinologist again until December."

This sounds like good reason to make an earlier appointment.

[dreamer-easy.livejournal.com]

I'm going to have to, I think. A contributing problem is that I haven't been using my blood glucose meter to check my sugars during the day - I want to try that for a bit, to get a clearer picture of how I'm doing. Then I can take that information to him. Mind you, if I get another eighty bucks for ten minutes consult, I shall have a tantrum. And find another endocrinologist.

[outsdr.livejournal.com]

Mind you, if I get another eighty bucks for ten minutes consult, I shall have a tantrum. And find another endocrinologist.

That's absurd. One thing I like about my doctor- an office visit may cost me $150, but he'll spend as much time with me as I feel I need.

I think a second opinion is in order if your current endocrinologist is not able to improve your current situation.

As for your organizational problems, I can't really help you there. I tend to be fairly well organized in the work place, but at home, I'm a disaster. I'm a stacker; and periodically I get sick of the stacks and dump them in a box to deal with "later." You can imagine how many of such boxes I have. I'm also an obsessive saver of things I don't need- like utility bill stubs I paid off months (or longer) ago. I'm trying to improve.

All if it pales in comparison to the horrible state my computer files are in.

[dreamer-easy.livejournal.com]

I'm in the middle of one of my intermittent purges. Once - years ago now - I got rid of some records at a second hand place, and the guy said, "Ah, the debris of the first part of a life." Egad.

[outsdr.livejournal.com]

Once - years ago now - I got rid of some of my Virgin NA books, and I've regretted it ever since. But, I thought I needed the money then. I really didn't. Someday, I'll get them all back.

I do have some old records I'd love to get rid of. I'm sure they're worth something to somebody; I just don't know if they're worth the time it would take to auction them.

Most likely, the next time I move, I'll take a look at all the stuff I've accumulated, and go on a massive purge.

It will be tough though- I do love stuff. And books. But a lot of the boxes of "stacks" should be easy to get rid of. And I have an entire closet full of old, obsolete computer equipment that can go to recycling.

I'm also guilty of the "that might be useful someday!" syndrome.

[murasaki-1966.livejournal.com]

I too suffer from this, and I'm a librarian. We're supposed to be organised. Hah. From personal experience I offer this advice: once a week, fortnight or month, whatever your personal comfort threshold is, pick a box, go through it, and get rid of anything you really don't need. Find a place immediately for this things you keep, and put the rest in the car/bin/etc immediately. Don't let the rejected things sit around and plead with you. This method is working for me, and I might have the house clear by the turn of the century.

[eurynome1967.livejournal.com]

I call mine "heaps'; "stacks" sounds too damn organised to me! ;)

[acelightning.livejournal.com]

See your endocrinologist, or some endocrinologist before December - next week, if possible. Whatever you're doing clearly isn't controlling your blood sugar at all. You may need different meds, a different diet, possibly insulin injections - IANAD, but obviously you need something. The blurred vision in particular needs attention now, or it will get worse. (My mother developed a completely iatrogenic form of diabetes, and it wasn't properly diagnosed or treated for years. By the time they actually started giving her the proper treatments, some of the damage was irreversible.)

[eurynome1967.livejournal.com]

*worried about you but nothing useful to say*

If you throw that tantrum, make sure you don't get charged extra for it ;) I'm with outsdr - for that much money, you should get a lot more attention. [Though, obviously, since I am English and therefore on the NHS you could rightly say I know naught whereof I speak ...]